Embracing yourself as you are and dealing with mental health issues

This is a topic I was debating whether or not to write about because I am not quite there yet myself. People that have something different about them that stands out to others will understand that growing up can be difficult and effect your self-worth and confidence. Growing up I was never full on bullied but I was always made to feel different and like I did not fit it. Having people comment on how I look all my life left me with very low confidence.

Sculptures from a lovely museum in the Netherlands called Kröller Möller

Strangers will come up to me just to say -Gosh your tall! or mock my height in some other way and it always catches me by surprise. Why people feel the need to tell me that I am tall I do not understand, I do know this I do not need you to tell me. Because I am surprised and not that confident I just swallow it and sink in to a hole of feeling like shit. But this is going to stop! 

I have, after feeling down in more than one way for very long, finally taken charge and started with seeking help for my mental health issues. I got to see a great doctor that took me seriously and I am now on medication and I am seeing a therapist to deal with my depression and social anxiety. Being different does not automatically mean that you will suffer from this but in my case it definitely plays a part and I need to work on loving me for me. Being on medication has been a real eyeopener I did not even know that you could feel like this, a sense of peace and happiness. It makes me think -Why did I not ask for help earlier! Before I would start every day on the bottom and most days I would not get out of that, every minor task would feel like a hurdle and I spent most of my free time on the couch. Now when I start the day I might be tired but it is OK. I was also struggling with worrying and dwelling on things that other people would easily be able to let go or creating catastrophic scenarios in my head, this has also gotten a lot better it is still there but most of the time when I start I think after a while -What ever I can not be bothered! and let it go. It is important to talk about mental health and to not be ashamed so this is why I felt the need to share.

I am working on accepting and loving myself for who I am and this blog is part of that journey. ❤❤❤

On a side note I really wish there was a place for us Swedish tall chicks to get together and share and support each other.